Mary J. Blige decided to seek treatment for her drug and alcohol addiction after an ex-BF put a gun to her head.

MJB cites early childhood trauma as a direct link to her adult drug dependency.

“The relationship I was in was so terrible, I had a gun to my face. At that point, I said to myself, ‘There’s something wrong with me. Guys don’t want to stick around because they are ashamed of me.’ Ouch! That gives me the chills right now!”

The Grammy Award nomination leader had sworn off penis when she met the current hubs Kendu Issacs:

“(I treated him) so badly for a while, because I’d never experienced real love before. I was suspicious. It seemed too good to be true. I remember lying on the bed with my head on his chest. I decided to stop drinking that night and forgive all the people who had hurt me and to forgive and love myself, because I loved him and I wanted to be true.”